Monday, December 07, 2009

What do you know?

I don't know. I don't know where I will be 1 year from now. I don't know what I will eat for dinner tomorrow. I don't know when I will have the time to learn Linus and Lucy before Christmas. I don't know if I will buy a house or stay living in an apartment. I don't know if I will get a dog anytime soon. I don't know if I keep my mouth shut about some things I really want to talk about. And I don't know if I am going ice skating in Rockefeller center.

I just don't know. And the funny thing is, I'm kinda okay with that. For the first time I'm not necessarily feeling the need to plan ahead. I kinda want to just go with the flow, enjoy the here and now, and see where it takes me. I was in a very similar situation not too long ago. Of course the circumstances were different, but I tried to live my life knowing what was going to happen, and the truth of the matter is that you don't know what is going to happen. So why not live the best life you can right now and get to tomorrow when it arrives?

This is all easier said than done and I love to have a plan of attack, but in this particular case it's almost relieving not to have to think about tomorrow. It may come and then you figure out what to do when that happens.

I've got choices. I've got so many options and possibilites. I am thrilled, and frankly downright excited to see how this all plays out. Yup, that is how I choose to feel right now.

*muah* world!